Can we at least know what happen since you guys are leaving us :(
We are working things out. I was living with my dad during all of this, the past week. Becca and i havent seen each other in a week. Not even at the hospital, i told them i didnt want to see her. Anyway last night i slept with her at my moms. Im still hurt and it is going to take a lot!! But she’d aalways give me chance when i hurt her, so im gonna give her a chance to make this better.
Everything is looking up from here.
i can definitely see a brighter future for me. Had a nice dinner with becca. I was super mad an hour before that. She was crying, there was yelling. We went to dinner..talked. had the biggest heart to heart weve ever had. Just so this doesnt happen again and her abusive ex contacting her randomly, after 6 uears..we are delefing our tumblrs and our facebooks. We dont need social media anyway. Anyway thanks for all of the support guys. Its been real.
Does your ex that you are talking to have a tumblr?
What what what? Im not talking to any of my ex’s. The fuck?
This feels so surreal. I never thought this day would come where you and Becca would split for good.. (it sounds like). It doesn't feel like it's possible. But whatever you choose to do, know that you have your supporters.
Thanks. I didnt really think so either but of you foind out the cral i do then its for the best.
You used to love becca sooooo much. What happened. i'm not asking you this to answer publicly but I'm asking this for you to be reminded how much you love her. You made to the point that you are willing to do anything for her. Answer this to yourself.
Excuse me? I didnt ask for her to do what she did. I dont know what game she is pulling on her damn tumblr but this is all on her. This time it was actually her fault. I have my heart broken over it and i know for a fact, i will not go back to her. i refuse to, bbecause of what i went through…i deserve better than that. I deserve a woman to love me, as a bestfriend and romanticly at the same time. Ill find the one sooner or later. As of right now though, im coping. So dont you dare say this like it was my fault..why would i hurt so much if it was?
After being so over whelmingly upset and depressed. Soon to come after is anger once again. Deleting some photos off my phone and IG…feels SOO GOOD!
Im fine. I feel happier after spending tim with my parents and my steo mom at the hospital for a few hours. At first i got even more emotional just being in a room with no family there. Felt like everyone left me. Well they tried taking me to a psychatric in kirkland to spend a week with guys who are on drugs.have real mental problems who stand all the time staring at a wall taljing to themselves. Scared me and then thought maybe i could gonand hear their stories and maybe help them. I wanted to go but i didnt want to not go to work and the fire academy this week. My kids make me happy. Matthew knew i was sad (hes two) and hugged me when i was sitting nnd said “i wuv you connor”. I teared up and hugged him telling him i love him too. Not only do impact those kids lives…they impact mine in a huge way. Im feeling better though and im on my way home. Gonna get a goods night rest, take a day off work and then go back to my regular day life. Thank you lorinda.
I just wanted to be lefta lone. Not have the cops and my ems brothers to take me to the hospital.
Knock it off! Don't kill yourself!!! Please just tell me what's wrong get it off your chest. Relax. Cole and Ashley need you.
No, don’t do that to me. Don’t bring them up. Not now
Don’t be afraid. I’m not afraid of anything.
I tried rolling my truck about a block away from my dads.
I was close but I had to restrain it because there was a car coming head on and I didn’t want to end up killing them either. Scared the shit out of me. That’s not what I want people to remember by…by killing people along with with me. Being a murder because I am selfish. So when my truck stopped I did a 180 and was in the lane the car was in. Luckily they stopped. I feel so bad.
I confessed to you once..